Sometimes I still can't believe that I am actually pregnant.  What a miracle and a blessing that Canean and I have been given.  Each day that passes our little boy grows inside me and makes his presence more known as my body continues to change.  My curves are a little softer and my belly bump has started to become an actual bump and less, I ate too many nachos and need to lose a few looking.  I really thought by now I would be having a panic attack about watching my body change and instead have been embracing the pleasant and not so pleasant surprises that have already begun to take shape.  Here are my Friday pregnancy confessions as I leave my first trimester behind and embark into second trimester territory.

I'll be 17 weeks on Sunday and so far, the biggest change has been my energy coming back to me!  I am starting to feel like somewhat of a normal person again.  Although I still take any opportunity for little power naps if the afternoon allows, because why not right?  My food aversions have dissipated slightly and here's the best news...I can eat veggies again without gagging!  Don't get me wrong I still crave a good cheeseburger and pizza pretty regularly, but it's not a daily obsession anymore. At the rate I was going, my little guy was going to come out not wanting milk, but wanting cheeseburgers and milkshakes instead.  And since my energy has returned slightly, I have been increasing my exercise by walking longer, adding strength exercises, and some prenatal yoga into my weekly routine.  It has felt really good to build some strength back again.  

And now that I am officially in my second trimester, I am really looking forward to what's to come!  I cannot wait to feel him move!  I know some people already feel their little ones by now, but my placenta is right in front creating a cushion and he has to get a little bigger before I will feel his flutters and kicks.  When I say I cannot wait...I really mean I CANNOT wait!  Monday I heard his heartbeat at our doctor's appointment.  Which I never get tired of hearing!  Even though he's only the size of an avocado right now, his little tiny heart is strong and beats with such fury and determination.  I melt...and also usually get kind of emotional also.  Imagine that.

I also can't wait for my bump to get bigger and bigger.  I know that might seem strange, but I am really loving watching my bump grow and the bigger it gets the more I want to touch it and the more I am amazed by what our bodies are capable of.  My. Mind. Is. Blown. Every. Day.  

And then there's the nursery!  Now that we know he's a he, over the next couple of months we will be getting the nursery together and I am so excited about creating his little sweet room where we will spend lots of time together.  I'm keeping the theme under wraps for now, but don't worry after it's complete I will be giving you all the deets!  I have been pinning like crazy and cannot get over all the cute baby things.  It's slightly overwhelming to say the least.

Speaking of overwhelming...let's talk registry.  I have no idea where to begin.  I feel like I will end up scanning things completely unnecessary and need to rely on all of you mamas out there to help me out.  What should I buy, what shouldn't I?  (Sincerely, this first time mama who is clueless.)

And while yes, my face tends to break out like a fifteen year old randomly from time to time, the gas is something of a large hairy man, I get headaches out of the blue that put me to bed, I cry at the drop of a hat, and my body will end up with a few more visible veins, stretch marks, and other war wounds by the end...I am totally and utterly in love with this little boy inside of me and wouldn't change any of it for the the world.

I am not oblivious to the fact that carrying a baby is one of the greatest gifts that God could ever give Canean and I.  I don't know how it's possible, but I am already bursting with love for my baby boy who I have never met.  And while I can't wait to hold him in my arms, I am also soaking in these months where it's just me and him.  Only he will hear my heart from the inside...and that's incredible.

Canean has been dealing with my neediness like a champ and knows just how to ease my mind and deal with my emotions of the moment (which can be all over the place), and when I look at him lately all I can see is how amazing of a daddy he is going to be and my heart literally explodes...

I think I fall in love with him a little more every day.  (sigh)

It's getting real sappy real fast around here guys, and I don't even want to apologize...

But I do want to thank you for your kind words and thoughts and prayers, and thanks for listening to my rambling too!  And if you have any tips for me, please do tell!  I need them all! 

Xo