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Friday Pregnancy Confessions, Volume 3

I'm two days away from entering week 27 of this pregnancy journey.  It really seems like just yesterday I found out I was pregnant.  Time is flying by and in 13 weeks I will have a little tiny human (or maybe not so tiny based upon how he is growing) to take care of.  This is both terrifying and really exciting to be honest.  I mean it's FOREVER guys!  I get to have him, as mine, forever!  So crazy.  As I approach my third trimester, I thought I would give you my updated Friday pregnancy confessions over the past couple of months!

These days Canean and I spend most of our nights talking about our sweet baby boy and all the things we will do with him.  We imagine how exciting all of his firsts of everything will be.  First ice cream cone, first bike ride with dad, first time he says dada or mama, the list goes on and on.  And while we are so ready to meet our little one in theory, we are also trying to soak in these last months where it's just the two of us together in our house.  While life is sure to be better than either of us could imagine, poopy diapers and sleepless nights included, we also know that life is going to change in a big way.  We, as a couple will change as a result and so we are trying to be conscious and savor these last days where our little human is still safely tucked inside my belly.  For now, it's just me and his dad loving each other and preparing for the arrival of the greatest gift either of us could ever receive.

The belly is a for real thing now, no denying this lady is pregnant anymore!  I actually had my first two stranger comments last weekend when we were out and about with friends from two different women.  I guess I'm finally out of the "is she pregnant or just bloated" phase.  I swear it grows every hour!  Every night when Canean gets home from work I make him feel my belly to show him how much I am convinced it has grown since the night before.  He humors me with a smirk on his face.  I am becoming slightly obsessed with my belly and my hands rub it constantly.  I never understood why pregnant women always had a hand on their belly at all times, but now I get it!  It's instinctive.  

With my growing belly has come a few not so pleasant side effects such as hip pain during the night and lower back pain that starts every afternoon.  All signs of a body preparing for it's biggest job in life.  I'll take the uncomfortableness in order to get to hold my sweet boy in my arms at the end.  There have been warm lavender baths nightly to ease the discomfort, lots of back rubs from my sweet man, too many pillows in the bed, and stretches to help alleviate some of the pressure.  I am quite the wiggle worm in the bed at night and Canean has been a trooper to put up with my flipping and flopping due to my hips hurting while I sleep.  I don't know that I would be so nice if the roles were reversed.  Ha.

We had company in town last weekend and I was on my feet a lot and stayed in the kitchen cooking up meals.  We stayed up late and got up early and this week I have paid the price!  I have been so exhausted up until yesterday and I guess just didn't realize what a toll your body takes when growing a human inside.  You have to give it rest and take care of it!  But other than the exhaustion this week, I have felt really good and have been very blessed so far in this pregnancy.

Food cravings are kinda the same.  I am still loving fruit of all varieties, and could eat a whole watermelon in two days if I didn't pace myself.  Throughout the day I eat super healthy and then after dinner my sweet tooth comes out to play and I HAVE to have something sweet.  It takes over me...it's a problem.  

The dogs are starting to become aware that change is in the future.  They are very curious about the nursery and Amos frequently smells my belly as if he can smell his little brother or maybe I just smell different?  He follows me around a lot more and needs to have me in sight most of the time.  I sense that there will be some stuffed animal stealing going on after the nursery gets completed by a sneaky blue eyed hound. 

We have most of the big items for the nursery and I am so ready to fill it in with little nick nacks of things that will make his room special.  I find myself getting distracted by going in his room and rocking in the chair or looking at his little clothes hanging in the closet.  I daydream about what he will be like when he arrives.  

Will he love me as much as I love him?  Will I be able to protect him from the scary world we live in?  What will his little voice sound like when he speaks his first words?  Will he have his daddy's olive green eyes or my hazel ones?  Will his toes be the same as mine or perhaps his little nose?  My days are filled with thoughts such as these and all I can be sure of is that I love him already more than I ever thought possible.

The thoughts of holding him in my arms is overwhelming because how can my heart handle more love than it already contains for him and his dad.  Oh his dad...how I fall a little harder in love with that man each day.  He has absolutely no idea what an amazing dad he is going to be....but I see it.  I see the two of them, growing together and living life to the fullest.  

To be honest, I am almost scared some days that life is too sweet right now and I have to remember that all good things are from above and that this is all a part of His plan.  I am so thankful for this life with all of my boys that I have been given (furry boys included).

I will keep posting pictures of my bump as I grow because I know one day I will forget how I looked when my tiny boy was growing inside of me.  And I don't want to ever forget one single moment of this journey, the most important journey I will ever take.

These pictures were taken at my 23 week mark by one of my most dearest friends.  She is an amazing photographer and these photos were taken on the fly and turned out so great. Check out Katherine Stinnett Photography for more amazing work of this lady!  Find her on Instagram at @knstinnett and on Facebook at Katherine Stinnett Photography.